Saturday, January 14, 2012
Hair
Friday, January 13, 2012
13 Things . . .












Thursday, January 12, 2012
The Best
There is no substitute for the best. Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Crying
I even cried in front of my children -- I could not help it. I tried to hide the water-works, but I know Daniel could see my cloudy eyes. I am sure he wondered what was wrong with his mom. I tried to explain I was just not feeling well. But that was not the complete story . . .
Life felt (and feels) heavy. Lately, I have started to really consider all of the choices to be made in the near future, and all of the decision-making that is about to land on my lap -- decisions begging for answers and solutions, that I just don't have, and I can't seem to figure out. I got nothing. No answers. And I hate that. I want to solve the puzzle.
There are some big choices to be made: What to do with our 2 bedroom, 1 bath house that has lost $50,000 in value? How to house my parents when they return from their mission in 6 months? What to do about a bigger vehicle for our growing family? What to do about the baby that will be born in a few months, with possible complications? What to do about our astronomical student loans? What to make for dinner? The list goes on and on . . . I will not bore you with details. The details just make me dizzy anyway.
Anyhow, I was spent. My mind had finally lost the battle that was raging inside (as I was trying to come up with answers to everything), I lost it and the tears began to flow freely and fairly violently. Again, not typical for me. I am strong. I am in control. I can handle anything. Right?
Sometimes it seems, that all of the decisions we have made have not seemed to work out for the best. At the time, the decisions seemed right, they felt good, we were "confident" in our choices -- hoping all would work out for the best in the future. (For example, buying our house 4 years ago.) To some degree, we have been a victim of the horrific economy, but I will also take responsibility for our own actions and choices. You make your bed and you sleep in it, right?
We have been frugal, for the most part . . . driving 20 year-old cars, and living in tight quarters together as a family, and keeping a tight budget. We are not extravagant in our spending -- though every once and awhile we will buy (or do) a nicety or two, after saving for it. We are not a family that needs "things" to be happy. We learned long ago things will never make us happy.
And now . . . we have before us challenges (mostly financial) to overcome. They may seem laughable to some, but to us, they are very real, and can be very intense (depending on my level of composer). As time and deadlines draw nearer, the intensity grows stronger. My desire to come up with solutions is forefront in my mind -- while awake and while dreaming. My mind swirls with ideas, but NEVER do I have a concrete answer for what to do. It is frustrating. The only answer I have right now: WAIT.
I believe in the near future we will see miracles -- I am not asking for them, but I am hoping for them. I feel like there is nothing we can do to change things right now, no obvious answers to our questions. Something else must be out there . . . another way, another path, perhaps something we have never even considered. Something unknown, and unseen.
Until I know which way to place our feet on the path, I will continue listening, hoping, praying, even crying -- and maybe we just might figure out which way we should go.
Ahhhh . . . waiting. One of the hardest answers of them all: JUST WAIT.
Friday, January 06, 2012
Weird Weather
On December 30, 2011 -- a big dark cloud rolled over our house. It brought thunder, lightning, wind and hail. It was crazy. One minute it was sunny and beautiful, the kids were playing outside, and then BAM -- in comes the storm. I grabbed my camera for proof. :-) It has been unusually warm this year and NO SNOW! My fear is some big snow-drop in the Spring! Let us hope NOT!
Confidence
Every now-and-again . . . I like to check-in with my kids to see how they are doing, and how they are feeling about life and things. It was Daniel's turn to give an update. Tuesday, January 03, 2012
Snowy Owls
Sammi happened to be watching the news with me at the time, and unlike the "experts", she said she KNEW why the Snowy Owls are in Idaho -- they are coming for her, of course! The Owls are finally bringing her Hogwarts acceptance letter! :-)
Hogwarts . . . Sammi is ready for her schooling. 
Lazy
Now, I feel a little more motivated (just a little!). But waking-up is still rough! Did I mention that my new bed (we have had it a few months now) is like Heaven? It is SO HARD to get out of bed in the morning because I am usually so dang comfortable! I never knew sleep could be so fantastic. I am especially grateful for my comfortable bed while being pregnant -- it has made a HUGE difference. Who knew??
So, yeah, motivated . . . I did try and run this morning, it had been about a month. My goal for December was to stay healthy, meaning: no sickness. So I tried really hard to get lots of rest and to not go out in the cold, too much. I let my running slide . . . but I did not get sick for the holidays/traveling! And that was a first!
Running this morning was super-rough, it was like starting over -- which was extra hard because the last month I have filled-out quite nicely. My left leg wondered what I had done when I got home . . . I am working the kinks out now and I think walking first, might be a good idea. ;-)
Anyway, nothing profound today. But even just getting fresh air has pushed away some of the fog I was feeling. It is amazing what a difference it can make. My body craves fresh air. Sometimes I am mean to my body and I don't let my body have what it really wants. I need to do better.
I really believe that exercise is key to feeling good. I hear a lot of people complain about different ailments and I wonder if they have tried exercise -- it really can cure so many things: headaches, body aches, weight-gain, bad skin, depression, etc. It is amazing. If you can't run . . . walk. If you can't walk . . . crawl. If you can't crawl . . . wiggle! Do something and you will feel better! So glad I could get out and move, even if I looked like a hippo trying to jog . . . may I have the strength of mind to do it again, tomorrow. :-)
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Baby Boy Name

ABC's for the New Year



C for Courage: There will be times when you will be frightened and discouraged. You may feel that you are defeated. The odds of obtaining victory may appear overwhelming. At times you may feel like David trying to fight Goliath. But remember—David did win!
Courage is required to make an initial thrust toward one’s coveted goal, but even greater courage is called for when one stumbles and must make a second effort to achieve.
Have the determination to make the effort, the single-mindedness to work toward a worthy goal, and the courage not only to face the challenges that inevitably come but also to make a second effort, should such be required. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says, “I’ll try again tomorrow.”

"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear." ~Ambrose Redmoon
2012 is going to be a fantastic year, a year of abundant living.
NOW is the time to ARISE AND SHINE FORTH!!
Let your light shine!
